ephemeral

what have we become, what have I become???

girls, girls, girls ...girls i do adore....

i still do but i aint going up to any and passing my number or asking them for theirs..

for 2 consecutive nights... girls with the whole package, looks, figure, knows how to groove...gosh

and what we( naz n i ) did...just to admire...

no...no...no...this aint broke back mountain...

scene 1. 31 Aug 2006
Bangsar, club 1115 -
We met this hot filipino indian...n her mom was there...my home boy Naz, offered the drinks, she asked his name, had lil conversations, .... she even rejected the indian macha(no, it wasnt me) who asked her if she wanted to dance...but my home boy asked her mom n got her to dance with him...
but...towards the end... he lets her pass him by...

scene 2. 1 Sept 2006
PJ, Waikiki -
Had a few rounds of beers at Nooks, then headed off to Waikiki...saw this hott, 9/10...cos i'll never give a 10....hott lil mamacita, groovin away...she was peepin, then gave looks, then stared right into me eyes...what did i do...just sat there and admired her from far...n let her pass me by...

gosh, what have we turned out to be...no, dont worry, we aint gay...

i guess we have too much to look for...not saying we're fussy, we had the best before, and im not settling for the 3rd or 4th best...and i cant be wasting my time chasing girls...i wanna chase the money n materials...feeling bad for all the women we've done wrong when were going through our playa days...sigh...i dont enjoy sex, im more of a making love person, but at this point, what i miss the most is...cuddlin up and having a cup of hot choco with one person...sigh...

woman are now just an ephemeral pleasure.