Another brilliant comment...
No matter how you say it, i am a word triggered person, you may have said it jokingly but that does not work for me ; but i've made a mistake, so fine, i've got to accept all that comes with the terms and conditions but to put it up in public, wow, wtf am i to you?
like seriously, would you really cover my back when i need you to? would you really take care of my well beings when im down with sickness? would you even shed a tear when im dead and gone?
by having to put up some childish comment up in a public space; which i really despise, and you know this, i've told you and bitched to you about it and yet you went and did something like that..well yea, nothing compared to what i did huh?( just make sure you don't fall in that manner, we all have done things that we once said that we wont do, who knows you might do something simillar, i just dont trust human instincts, not you and we know the females are better at doing a good good job at covering it up)
anyway, i realised the posts are getting depresseive lately, well what can i say, i dont really have a life no more, and most of the time is killed solving other people issues, sleep and talking to the one thats supposedly be covering your back ; seldom meet up with the rest of the world that i once knew for all it can be wrong for someone but thats alright, there's always a price to pay.
i can';t help but to think where all this is going to go...2 more years till the big 3-0 shiest, wait this year is ending, 1 more year to hit...where am i going to be? where all this going to go? would i make it in life to be my family's provider? would she stop this and really be someone who encourages rather than discourages? would i be able to finance my niece and nephew to be studying abroad? would i have enough to help myself and the needy? well of course theres plans and recovery methods but at this very point, yes this very point, i wish i can fast fwd and see it how it ends and spoil the fun.
i wish to sleep and never wake up...whats left to be done, to see the next generation grow up? what if i can't be a provider? what is the point? ...getting married? hmmph, at this rate it looks like a joke... making it in life? how to be nice and be rich?
be opptismistic,people say...well fuck you cos each time i try , something is said to bring that flava out of my mind...fuck you and your opticmistic-ism, ...
ouh what am i ranting about...people ard me have always doubted me in many levels, parents to teachers to friends to significant others...it is a selfish world and when we're gone we don't bring anything with us but the sins and some so called good deeds.
so yea this is nothing new, everyone like everyone one just doubts everyone and i have alwyas been doubted by those who are really close to me. so yeaaaa....makes no difference, thats the key word, and maybe you' have staged all this...but wit all this i am glad that i admitted that mistake...cos i got to see this side, i guess not many woulkd have; hence they might think you are all sweet and nice,like the stalker of urs,hahahahahaha....
dayuummm, see how the ball rolls....man, i hd to make a mistake to see this side of you to get to know the real you which compromises both good and bad....
and i don't have to write some grammatically correct essay with some words that people dont even know exists to prove or show i am a class above you.
and i shall make some difference...
like seriously, would you really cover my back when i need you to? would you really take care of my well beings when im down with sickness? would you even shed a tear when im dead and gone?
by having to put up some childish comment up in a public space; which i really despise, and you know this, i've told you and bitched to you about it and yet you went and did something like that..well yea, nothing compared to what i did huh?( just make sure you don't fall in that manner, we all have done things that we once said that we wont do, who knows you might do something simillar, i just dont trust human instincts, not you and we know the females are better at doing a good good job at covering it up)
anyway, i realised the posts are getting depresseive lately, well what can i say, i dont really have a life no more, and most of the time is killed solving other people issues, sleep and talking to the one thats supposedly be covering your back ; seldom meet up with the rest of the world that i once knew for all it can be wrong for someone but thats alright, there's always a price to pay.
i can';t help but to think where all this is going to go...2 more years till the big 3-0 shiest, wait this year is ending, 1 more year to hit...where am i going to be? where all this going to go? would i make it in life to be my family's provider? would she stop this and really be someone who encourages rather than discourages? would i be able to finance my niece and nephew to be studying abroad? would i have enough to help myself and the needy? well of course theres plans and recovery methods but at this very point, yes this very point, i wish i can fast fwd and see it how it ends and spoil the fun.
i wish to sleep and never wake up...whats left to be done, to see the next generation grow up? what if i can't be a provider? what is the point? ...getting married? hmmph, at this rate it looks like a joke... making it in life? how to be nice and be rich?
be opptismistic,people say...well fuck you cos each time i try , something is said to bring that flava out of my mind...fuck you and your opticmistic-ism, ...
ouh what am i ranting about...people ard me have always doubted me in many levels, parents to teachers to friends to significant others...it is a selfish world and when we're gone we don't bring anything with us but the sins and some so called good deeds.
so yea this is nothing new, everyone like everyone one just doubts everyone and i have alwyas been doubted by those who are really close to me. so yeaaaa....makes no difference, thats the key word, and maybe you' have staged all this...but wit all this i am glad that i admitted that mistake...cos i got to see this side, i guess not many woulkd have; hence they might think you are all sweet and nice,like the stalker of urs,hahahahahaha....
dayuummm, see how the ball rolls....man, i hd to make a mistake to see this side of you to get to know the real you which compromises both good and bad....
and i don't have to write some grammatically correct essay with some words that people dont even know exists to prove or show i am a class above you.
and i shall make some difference...
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