This is the end
i love you... i really do.
nuff is enuff...i made a mistake...n this is enough...
im just the person that i never wanted to be,,,and you did not save me,,,sighs,,,guess i shoukd have saved myself...but no... i've turned to this...
...this sucks...it really does...never did i get my assurance and u were worried bout your paranoia...
guilt trip.
nuff is enuff...i made a mistake...n this is enough...
im just the person that i never wanted to be,,,and you did not save me,,,sighs,,,guess i shoukd have saved myself...but no... i've turned to this...
...this sucks...it really does...never did i get my assurance and u were worried bout your paranoia...
guilt trip.
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wtf?? we break up on your blog?? wow, how smooth is that..
seriously wth are you talking about?? pretencious?? save you??
yea, you know what, it really is all my fault isnt it?? its my fault u cheated on me. its my fault you lied through 9 months of our relationship, denying totally about going out with.. its my fault i cant just forget all that in just a couple months. i knew about her, and when i tried to leave you the first time, you say some shit about how i'm like everyone else, just walking out from ur life. you denied every damn thing, even when i caught you. u couldnt admit it, not until i pressed you and questioned you abt things, and when she was calling you, you wanted ME to talk TO HER, and you said I should settle things with her. WHAT THE FUCK!!! i tried to leave you again, you wanted a 2nd chance. and then u come up with the bullshit, that oh you didnt do shit with her, its all just a mind game to test me. to fucking test me!!! how the fuck am i suppose to deal with that. you played with my heart, then you fucking play with my head.
but fiinee.. i still try to deal with all that. but i cant pretend to be something i'm not. i cant put my smiles up for you every single time. i got my problems with you, yea i shove it in your face. i dont go fuck some other guy to make myself feel better, then come back to you all good. like i said, i cant pretend like that, and please dont expect that from me, just cuz ur so damn good at it.
what the hell do you want? i try to talk to you. i question you abt certain things, you just shut down and grey out and then bite at me for bringing out the issue of THE MISTAKE and opening up your fucking wound. you pull everything to that. i'm suppose to shut the fuck up and not question you when your stories dont add up? fuck you.
and dare you say i claim to understand you. how abt u just bury urself under ur own surfaceness.. jeeezz.. you filter your stories so damn much, they lose its substance.
oh but its my fault rite that you turned to this. i dont even know what you mean by 'this'.
and your assurance?? i dont love you? yea well, i just put myself through all this because it's the funnest damn thing. desptie all that, i look for the best in you, but no matter what i say or do, its discouraging you. i'm sorry. but thats not good enough isnt it. what assurance do you want?? that u have ur hold on me with one hand, and ur free to do what you want with the other?? fuck you. the only assurance you'll get is that i'm not like you!
and dont pretend your want to come to london is for me when ur just trying to run away from ur problems.
you waste your time with me, and yup you can blame me for that too.
you love me? rite.. where? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vv57gssfuBU
so much for the surprise i had for you. Happy 1 year anniversary!!